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i freaking hate sports, basketball to be more specific. unfortunately, i had to choose girls grade basketball since boyfriend took a long time on deciding a sport. plan was for us to choose a sport to do together since we dont have classes together AT ALL, so sports was meant to be our savior. but i guess not so i went with stephanie and the rest to do basketball, while boyfriend did boys grade cricket.

on the other hand, more bad news... Gino lost his valentines day gift... yes the ring. here's his story in his view from what i can remember him saying to me last night on the phone. ps, long conversation:

Gino: hey hun... i have to tell you something
Me: what... (obviously i was making quick assumptions in my head about other things)
Gino: i lost the ring!
Me: ... BULLSHIT AHAHA YOU'RE FUNNY
Gino: No hun im being serious! i lost the ring! im here telling you that i lost the ring, feeling like i want to kill myself and you say its bullshit? oh my god
Me: wait.. you serious? you actually lost it?
Gino: Yes and im sooo sorry! can you forgive me?
Me: Aww of course i can, but how did you lose it?
Gino: Well... i went fishing after school with friends yeah, and like.. when i was fishing, i saw a massive pebble and temptation got to me. i was throwing pebbles and shit into the water, and then out of nowhere i see the ring fly into the water and im like "SHIT" and i jumped in the water, Chanda came in and Robert too and they helped me look for it. im sooo sorry
Me: Ahahahaha what the fuck? how bullshit is that! unlucky hunnn. dont worry, just next time dont wear jewelery and stuff or else you're going to be losing more jewels hahas. and its okay, dont worry about it. i can get you another one if you want?
Gino: NO! dont ever buy me anything again. fuckkk i hate fishing so bad now, that's the last time im ever going fishing... whats even more bullshit is how it flew off! it was so tight on my finger remember? (at school when i saw him wear it, i was checking if it was a perfect fit and it was a tight fit around his thumb and his thumb's knuckle also made things more difficult to budge) arghhhh im so disappointed kim... i lost the ring and you bought it for me too! RECENTLY AS WELL!!!
Me: Woaaaah gino, relax ahaha its okay dont worry, dont be so hard on yourselffff. its okay okay?
Gino: No its not okay! it meant a lot to me kimmmm ahhhh. stupidd fucken lake, hates me or some shit. just cause i pissed if it, fuckk youuuu.. fuck youuuuu. gonna chop my thumb up in a minute
Me: NO DONT! dont worry about it ginooo, its okay honestly it is.

a conversation like that was going on for about an hour and a half... its true, ask brenda. she was there to hear it all since we were video calling. then a few minutes later, my boyfriend acts asif his insane and starts talking to his fingers

Gino: fuck you... yeah im talking to you. fucking shit fingers, you betrayed me. made me lose my ring, im gonna fuck you up later.

AHAHAHA cute.

Write something about each year of your schooling life from the start till now.

• Pre School - didnt know the difference between water and dirt. Fact: we all use to go to the toilet together and use to see each other's private parts! thank god i dont remember anything that far back...
  
• Kindergarten - cried when mummy would say goodbye to me
• Year 1 - too innocent, learnt my timetables up to 5 and adored my teacher... Miss Lah
  
• Year 2 - still innocent, very white child too lmao. always wore those big round hats, never got bored of clapping songs
  
• Year 3 - i got black, how the hell did that happen lolol. dumb kid, forgot maths and never liked english
• Year 4 - somehow the work kicked in, disciplined child, made my first ever best friends.
  
• Year 5 - quiet. nerdy. introduced to "sports". geeky. in the worst class with not many people to be friends with
• Year 6 - school prefect. loved cricket and running. bossy. mean. bitch. lots of fights with friends. handball was a 366 day addiction. introduced to the use of eyeliner at the year 6 farewell
• Year 7 - scared... nervous for high school. met the best people and the worst. relationships. finally got a proper haircut LOL.
  
• Year 8 - tb till mid-year. ranga till end of year with $200 extensions. met the best love but then saw the worst in the end
  
• Year 9 - took off extensions. loss friends but made a few others. asshole boyfriend. LMAO im kiddinggg. starting to love lifeeee, let's hope things stay this way

yes i know, im incredibly young.

10 ways to know if you love someone

1. you talk to him/her late at night and after hanging up or signing offline, you are still thinking about the person
2. you walk really slow when you are with them because you want this moment to last
3. you dont feel 'okay' when he/she is at a far distance away
4. you smile when you hear their voice
6. they are your everything
7. you smile every time you look at them
8. there's a person in your mind while you are reading this
9. you've been so busy thinking about this that you didnt notice that number 5 was missing.
10. you are now checking if it is true... yes it is true and now you are feeling like you just wasted time ahaha!

thanks for the song brenda♥ (some words below may not make sense, where i got the lyrics from might be wrong or Jason Derulo's english just sucks lmao)

it makes me happy to see you wear your ring to school and manage to still be proud of the fact that it is bigger then your fingers :)

PS, i gave boyfriend his Valentines Day gift early since i couldnt help myself lmao. i know i know, i suck at surprises but mehh.. LOL. ring from Goldmark, engraving - K♥G

morning bloggers! its a sunday today so im usually at home but im home today either way since im grounded haha. well grounded, sorta-ish... just the argument i had with mum yesterday about "me going out too much", woman please, i go out once a week... meh. okay so im grounded i guess, and according to her i can only go out with either parents or my brother. pfft, as if im going to obey that, i'd rather commit suicide then go shopping with parents. when i shop with parents, i usually get what i want since they got the money but then mum is just one of those women who have a lot of compliments on things. what i see and i like, she either has to say its shit material or im just too fat for it. zzz, low self esteem right there. ohh wellll LOL. i think i lost like 2kg recently too, my stomach feels much flatter then it did before rofls. WHO'S FAT NOW BITCH?

this week was meant to be a good week too before i got grounded! this week was going to be Johnny's big birthday party(its so big his making the boys chip in $40 and chicks chip in $10? the good side of being a chick has finally paid off), then sunday was going to be Valentines Day but also Chinese New Year! Jackie just told me something about Chinese New Years eve where families go out to dinner to eat then money on Sunday... err mine do both on Chinese New Year, i dont know what everybody else does but yeah that's how the Bui's roll LOL. Money + food on the same day, y-y-yeah. hmm i dont know what to do D: im not even sure if im going to be allowed out! if not, im going to be very angry. such an important week and i had to get grounded...

• Monday 8th February - Johnny's actual birthday so i get to punch him to death, plus double hits from Vivian
  
• Saturday 13th February - Johnny's birthday party in his big ass Asian house D:
  
• Sunday 14th February - Valentines Day AND Chinese New Year!

i dont know! HELPP! what's everyone going to be doing? (people invited to Johnny's) haha i just went on and on about getting grounded again in the previous paragraph. lmao.

where the hell is everyone today :( im so boredddddd.
taxxed off Carolineshawty's tumblr :) is it just me, or is there a tattoo of herself on her right arm in the mirror reflection?

and im feeling better today♫ wooo.

boyfriend and me solved things out i guessss. vivian came over today to keep me company, went over to gino's house to talk(we walked from villawood to fairfield east gahh, in shit weather too!), then i got into trouble with mum.

i hate it when parents judge other people by appearance? she started yelling at me and telling me off just because i was at a guy's house like dude, relax? i think im smart enough to not get myself into shit at guy's houses especially if they're my boyfriend and friends were over... im pretty sure everything would've been okay. asian parents these days, they say to you that they set up all these rules and disciplines for our "safety", what kind of safety is it for us if we dont learn our surrounding environment's dangers? what you see, you'll learn. and when you make mistakes, you'll also learn from your actions. nobody's perfect. if i get kept inside the house, i wont learn what this place has to behold. i'll probably get even more insane inside rather then outside my home. its even more gay, when they say "i just want you to be happy"... yeah is it for your happiness or mine? oh well, she cant keep me inside my home/grounded for that long right?.. right? she's told me that im grounded so many times but then a week later im still out and about, i wonder if it'll be the same this time especially if Valentines Day is this week. hmm.

its the first time that i feel like im about to die, just say anything else but good bye. dont tell me its over

(U)

its late at night, and its raining. on rainy days, its like a day where everything soothes my mind and lets my thoughts run out of my head like a pipe. what am i to do, with a broken heart♫

i stare at your gift thinking if this is going to be worth everything or is this just another waste of time. starving myself to save the money, accepting all the pain, accepting you, all of it. right now, at this moment and time, the answer is no. do i close the lid and forget it all or is this really the end.

Listen baby
I wonder why sometimes we fall apart
Together we are so wonderful
And every single day i pray, that really things shouldnt never be this way
Im only trynna be a better man

Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?
Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be
Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you say to me
As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your hurting me
What am i to do with a broken heart?

All the time everybody say that you and me are over
But i know were meant to be together for eternity
Was it untrue what we promised each other?
Baby my heart keeps telling me
That it shouldnt be this way forever
Im only trynna be a better man

Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?
Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be
Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you pray to me
As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your hurting me
What am i to do with a broken heart?

Girl remember when, we made our promises?
That we would be together through-out every single thing
Now im only tryna be a better man, but you've never noticed that
Girl i truly love, to be around you
And baby ill give you anything you want me to
Cos i know this might be hard for you,
And i know that we will be

Why then do you see all the negative things, in me?
Cos all i ever do is try to be, all that i can be
Girl you know your hurting me, all the things you pray to me
As i lie at night im imagining things, how it used to be, girl you know your hurting me
What am i to do with a broken heart?

you love me, you love me not... you love me, you love me not... hurry up and choose.

days like these, i just wanna sit down and cry to myself - its been known from the start of life that crying is what purifies the soul and it is what makes us human. these days, i dont know what has been happening... im confused. maybe it is true that after awhile of knowing someone, you slowly start to see their true colors. you begin to realize that the all the times they've supported you, all the times they've been there to hug you when you're down, to keep you company when its most needed; it has all been a lie. you realize they were only there for you for a period of time, then they leave like the door was just opened for them. we were in the middle of the race but every race has its finish line, you finished first and i came second. you forgot about me.


i'd be a liar if i told you, that i didnt see it coming. be more of a lie if i said i didnt want it to be something♫ how is it possible to just forget everything and everyone like it just doesnt matter anymore, or asif you never knew them from the beginning. we promised to never change, we promised to always be there for each other in each other's company, but i guess it's true that you cant keep promises. promises are broken, which is how hearts are broken. and now my heart's broken for the 3rd time, you suck.

my phone's a slut. i hate it i swear to god, its always freezing! most of the time when it does freeze, i'd be able to fix it; plug it into my computer and then it fixes itself. NOW this time, it just totally fucking died. its not responding to me! it only seems capable of accepting calls but other then that, its dead. i want my music and i want my photos mother fucker! not happy... that's it, i want a new phone. im sick of high tech phones like iPhones! nothing but a piece of shit.

moving on, im complaining about a lot of things today since today has just been a day where things happen and its just asking for me to complain about it. i didnt get to buy my VAPD from school today for $6.50 since i gave into hunger of no food for 3 and a half days so i bought a sandwhich + a bottle of water for $4. so how was i going to have enough for an art diary now? soo, after school i went to buy my own at the newsagency. Du ma may! the VAPD i bought outside of school was for $14.... fuckkking hell. should'nt of gave into hunger, should've just bought the art diary at school and pig out on McDonalds after school. ergh. oh yeah, if anyone's curious about why im not eating at school, its because im saving up money for boyfriend's Valentine's day present... wait how come it feels like i've said this already? meh.

did you know you're a dickheaddddd :$ hehehhehe. piece of shit, go fucking die. i dont even like you and you stick your wombat face into my business. faaaaak off.

i guess thats all i can complain about at the moment lol... the dickhead that just pissed me off totally made me forget about everything i was planning to right.... fucking asshole, swear to god i hope you get bashed again tb fagget.

i hate it when i fight with my boyfriend. LOL what is this like the 1000th blog i've written about my boyfriend and me arguing? it makes me feel like shit, but then it makes me angry, but then it makes me wanna smash him, but then it makes me want to hug him to make things better, but then it makes me wanna kick him to China and back, but then it just makes me love him even more. through thick and thin, rough and smooth times, we've always argued. no matter what. i even remember this fight we had on my birthday, argh, that was the worse. because i knew he was going to ask me out but then since we fought, i was worried he was starting to have doubts. i promised myself ever since our 999th fight at Fairfield pools to be a better person and try to argue less, oh wait, im still picking fights with him. i dont mean to pick fights, like i seriously dont mean it at all, even though its always me, accidents do happen right? and the jerk that made the saying "think before you do", is a fag. because seriously, how can you think before you do, when it just comes naturally in the speed of light? what, somewhere between the speed of light and me reacting im meant to be like "hmm.. stop". totaaaaally lmfao. i sometimes wonder how he can put up with me... even i would've slapped myself over the head by now.

well, im thankful that he is still my boyfriend till now... his had to put up with me and my complaints for about 2 months and 3 days now.. tank! ahaha. nah but seriously, i love him loooooots.

dont you just hate it when after your boyfriend and you argue, it just goes into that awkward silence mode? that time where you're thinking about how much of a jerk he is but then you're also thinking how hurt you are? i hate that time. it's just that really cut feeling where you just regret ever saying what you said to make you argue in the first place. then after a few minutes or so of an awkward silence, you begin to feel wrong and guilty because you know even though you are in pain, he is probably having a much harder time dealing with it. guys are weird, i know, us teen girls say it all. but then guys arent smelly pigs(well most of the time they are), they think as well... I KNOW WOOOOW! GUYS THINK? LOL. well from what i've been told by a friend. during the time we think about how much of a jerk he is, he is most likely thinking about how much he wants to slap us silly lmfao. then after that 30 second period of thinking about how much of a bitch we are, they go into that state where they think its their fault; this is their fault, that is their fault, how everything is always their fault. aww, i felt like shit so badly when my boyfriend felt like everything was his fault, cause it wasnt. most of the time its always me :( but now, im going to make it up to him and show him how sorry i am for all the past arguments. this Valentines day, im going to surprise him, something precious. im going to buy him something special which i wont blog up until the night before Vday♥

it is within a fortnight's time until Valentines Day. Gino Saman's my Valentine, who's yours? :)

mummy bought me a box of new fake lashes hehe :) i tried some on today, looks hecticccc. i guess it only fully stands out in photos when i look down, in life its like pwoah what the hell, touching my eyebrows LOL. 3rd photo it looks like im smelling my armpits.. i swear to god it wasnt meant to turn out like that LOLOL. stupid Brenda had to point it out, wrecked the photo :@